I feel like I've got a huge road block in my life. I'm at a complete stand still. I thought I could just cruise through postpartum depression and make it through to the other side but things are crumbling.
The past few months have been insanely difficult. My girls are missing out on a happy mama and I'm missing out of happy times with them. Every day is a battle to be happy. On Monday Gibbie actually asked me when she would have her happy mama back. That was the most completely heartbreaking moment of all of this.
The Hubs has been so amazing through this. He's kind and patient with me when I feel like the worst human being around.
I finally saw my doctor yesterday and was given a prescription, told to look at the blue sky whenever I can, and to workout whenever possible.
I'm eager to get back to normal. I miss feeling good. I miss wanting to be around people. I really miss feeling like a good mama.
